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Chasing A Hidden Dream


This post is probably going to be all over the place, so please excuse the hot mess that will flood this post. The past year I have been chasing a dream that I've always had, and that is writing. I've been writing ever since I can remember, but I've never dedicated myself to the craft. Fun fact about me, when I was in grade school I wrote a poem about fall and I won a creative writing contest with it. That poem is in our small towns historical museum. I truly believe that it was that day that I realized that writing was my passion. That day the writing bug bit me, and the itch to create has never left. Throughout school I wrote and loved every second of it. I won contests and scholarships but I never thought of being an author. In brutal honesty I truly believed that I could never achieve being an author because I live in a small town, and well it's hard to have big dreams in a small town. I don't live in a place where I could find editors, agents, publishers, and knowing that made me put my love for writing in a box I didn't know then that you can find those connections through the magic of the internet. My high school teacher tried with all her might to push me to believe in myself and to give myself the chance to be an author. Sadly I played it safe and pushed that passion down. I went to school to be a teacher. I played it safe all my life, and it landed me in a job field I wasn't passionate about. I love kids and I love seeing their little minds grow, but it isn't my heartbeat.  My heartbeat has always been writing, creating, and books. 
 Once I realized that it was like God gave me signs everywhere to chase my dreams. To not put my dream or Him in a box. If this is a dream He created in my heart it shouldn't be ignored. Everywhere I looked there was inspiration. I took the plunge secretly and wrote down an outline of a story that had been in my head for a long time. After I wrote that outline I had to start writing because the concept had taken over my life. I felt like if I didn't write it down I would explode. I worked on it for awhile, but it felt like it flew by. That book was a passion project that I had to do for myself, and I loved every second of it. In all honesty it's a hot mess that needs serious revision, but it's mine and that's what matters. God kept blessing me with signs to keep going. I went to a church book club and a woman I had never met was there. We started talking and turns out she is a published author! In our small town she made her big dream come true, and she was sharing her tips and tricks with me. She gave me a long list of craft books I devoured, offered to be a beta reader for me, and just an all around amazing book friend.
  I don't know if I will every be published, but I am chasing my dream to create, write, to be an author. It's time to take a hidden dream and release it from the old box I've hid it in for years. I'm releasing the dream and replacing it with my fears and anxiety in the box instead. It just feels right to be writing, and I'm overjoyed to be taking the plunge. 
I'm in the middle of outlining a new book, and I am so in love with it! It's like dating where it's new, fun, and we are just getting to know one another. Since I've been outlining the last month I should be ready to start writing it in November. It feels like the stars are aligning and telling me to do Nanowrimo so I will be participating for the first time! Y'all I am nervous and excited to start this journey. If you are doing Nano please let me know so we can be writing buddies! 
I feel like this wouldn't be a fun post without giving you a sneak peek of a mood board I've created on Pinterest for my book.

I'll share more about my story in posts to come, but for now I'll share that it's a YA urban fantasy with a heavy swoon worthy forbidden romance.
I share little sneak peeks on my Instagram if that's something you're interested in make sure you're following me. 
 I don't know if I will ever be published, but I am chasing my dream to create, write, and to be an author. It's time to take a hidden dream and release it from the old box I've hid it in for years. I'm releasing the dream from the box, and putting my fears and anxiety in its place. I am going to start incorporating writing posts on here, and I want your opinion on this idea. What type of posts do you want? I am thinking about doing writing diaries, my favorite podcasts for writers, craft books that have helped me, and inspirational posts. If there is anything you would like to see just let me know in comments below. 
Before I sign off I want to thank you. Every single person that reads my posts means the world to me. I have met so many amazing book friends through this blog, and I am overwhelmed at the friendships this blog has created. Thank you for being such a supportive incredible community. I love every single one of you and thank you for being a part of this.

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